Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Hmm... my heart and mind are in a mess... Dunno what's true and what's not.

Someone whom you believed in most may have put up a facade. Someone whom you hated the most last time may actually turn out to be your true friend. Haha.... Hypocrites and True friends everywhere. Haix...

Its not worth it...

Ok.... Jia you!! Java, EAIPJ and Entreprenuer!!! I must be independent, not gonna rely or trouble on any other ppl for help... haha... know its kinda hard but I wanna improve.

Worried and depressed about a lot of things... Hopefully I can confine in someone who truly understands me. But in the meantime, I must rely on myself.

No one owes anyone a living. I find it hard to accept that people can actually be so cheap... Haix... Immaturity eh?

Stressed... Depressed... Anguish... Paranoid... Disappointed

Good night.

it got me home
9:30 PM

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Well, I am sure everyone feels the same way....

Hmm... Accomplished something today. Managed to use asp.net codings to retrieve RSS feeds from espn.com and other website. I know how to manipulate the data too! Yay!

Went to school today and did some UI. Winston, Joyce and Steven accomplished quite a lot of their parts le. :)

Just need our SQL Server 2005 disks ready and we are ready to go.

Everyone jia you and stay happy! Though its stressful :)

Good night.

it got me home
9:30 PM

Monday, November 26, 2007

Well... went to school as usual...

Hmm... Life's never the same again.. Haha...

After entre lecture, Steven, Winston, Jun Kai and I went to North to have breakfast... Had egg prata. 90 cents for a big slice... worth the money. Sok Ee and Sulaiha joined shortly.... and left

After lunch, the four of us had some brief EAIPJ discussion... Hopefully we can make it man... a lot of technical issues discovered. Haha.

Then, we went to Mac and met up with Joyce, who just visited the doctor. Hmm, saw Elaine, Pei Ying and Shirley too. But the 5 of us had to leave for the library as there were not enough space for 8 ppl. Sorry, Steven, for the 'short reunion', lol.

Hmm... then in the library, lethargically we managed to discuss a bit of our database tables... Haha... so boring... Steven fell asleep already...

Then... Blablabla, went to find Si Wei, Ying Ting and Li Qin at mac then briefly we went for the useless GSC lecture.

=.= As usual, he was just reading from the slides. Today's topic was 21 pages. Luckily he decided to go through the remaining 9 pages after going the painful 12 pages. Haiz... no mood as no dinner too. But wed will be a good day! haha... hope so.

Then tutorial... boring like hell... He didn't return our ICA and still has the cheek to say that he hasn't even seen our papers yet :(

Anyways, thats all.. Steven's at my place now. haha.

Good night.

it got me home
9:20 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

These days I have been feeling like an empty glass with nothing in it.

Don't know whats wrong with me... My aspirations were just right in front of me. One just disappeared but there are still more...

Now I find going to school a dread... but I can't give up otherwise I can't provide a good life for my parents! Hmm... still need to do Global Supply Chain tutorial for tml! Its double tutorials covering this week and last week's tutorials. Sianz...

After that, I will write up some Internet Security tutorials...

Things that will happen this week:

Monday: EMO
Tuesday: Napfa and then teach tuition.
Wednesday: Stay back to discuss EAIPJ and perhaps java.
Thursday: Teach tuition again.
Friday: EMO

Really feel like keeping a hamster! But financial wise, dunno can my wallet take it anot. Haha...

Always trying to be a better person each day!

it got me home
6:10 PM

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Hmm.... I need to create more entertainment. Haiz.... Are there any more fun things to do in life? Gaming? Going out?

In the end, its just up to me to create fun. Haha...

it got me home
7:55 PM

Haiz... and I am still trying!

Well, I thought of a new way to salvage my feelings before I lose all of them. Haha...

http://www.geocities.com/absolutehamster/main.html

Been reading up this ^ last night...

I think getting a hamster will be nice? Hmm, since I need to be more responsible, this is the time to do it. Lol... I hope I won't regret this decision :/

Alright, time to research on EAIPJ!

Good day...

it got me home
6:27 PM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Yea... My life really sucks... School is not fun at all!!! And I am not an interesting guy at all! No wonder no one asks me out!

Not utilising my available time efficiently... So... back to blogging again.

Hmm... I wanna go Kbox, sentosa this sat!!... or play some basketball or some other sports.

Haiz, wish that I can return to year 1 again... and know each of my friends better. Now a bit regret. :/

But oh well, whats over is over. I can't chase back time. Life is full of regrets.

Anyways, just had my Internet Security ICA yesterday, quite fun i must say, lol.

Gonna have my Java ICA later, hope I don't fail this one, though I have really bad feeling about it...

Hmm... now i need more money so that I can do whatever I want to do.

Last semester liao, must make it an enjoyable and memorable one!

But now, I think I am down with some insomnia, always wake up several times in the middle of the night... Hmmm... my parents really worried... I need to visit the doctor on sat to check wth is wrong with me and to ease the worries of my parents...

I have really troubled them these months... Geez, parents really know everything about their children. We can't hide anything from them. Sorry for neglecting the both of you long enough, and thank you for always staying with me even during those difficult times.

But I really don't understand human nature, one could betray the other so easily due to mistrust... If only, these conflicts and misunderstanding can be understood and resolved easily... the world would have been a better place...

Feelings come and go... Mine's still clinging onto me... may time blow it away soon...

Good day.

it got me home
10:47 AM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

It has 8 days since you mentioned that...

No matter where I look at, there is always you. You have captivated my heart. But you are avoiding me. I know that you are confused and wish to be alone. I am sorry to have made you so troubled to the point that you got so stressed out that you lost your temper. You said that you can't communicate with me, it is not true. I know you are still feeling guilty... But my heart just instructed my hand to contact you everyday... This has become a part of my life since that day we started and I can't change anymore.

What you are feeling right now is temporary... But for me, it is for life.
I am glad that you were honest with me, but I am sad that it has happened.

These eight days have made me thought through a lot, all that you have done for me. I do accept corrections as you have said, then why did you not give me and yourself another chance?
I know how to take care of myself, but I know you can't. I know you are independent and I also do not wish to be like a father nagging at you. But one, no matter how strong, will need a shelter, care and of course, freedom. I was just trying to give you what you lack so that we will be on even ground. You appreciated what I have done and I am grateful.

Thank you for listening to my song and I am glad that you appreciate it. I hope that I can still touch your heart, like last time.

I do not blame you, so you do not have to feel guilty. Everyone makes mistakes, isn't that right? But the most important thing is to learn from mistakes. You already said that you were joking. Feelings can change at every moment and every time. I am truthful and I know you always are. I know that you are angry everytime I disagree with you. Sorry for always neglecting your feelings. Your advice are good, and it is showing results. You told me to treat my parents better, and I did. You pinpointed all my shortcomings and I am willing to change for the better.

I remembered the things that you and I promised.
I just want you to know that if you have any change of heart, there is always me. Please do not say that you don't deserve me. I don't deserve anyone better than you.

You are always in my heart! 你在我心里面!

it got me home
12:47 PM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Just you wait!

it got me home
12:35 AM

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[A]dores.
MY PARENTS!!!~!!!~~!
Someone
Read the two above
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Someone
Hypocrites
Half-hearted people
Gays

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~~Get a PSP!~~
~~Get a Wii~~
~~Get a Digital Camera!~~
Get a laptop which is <1kg
Go taiwan!
Get a girlfriend
Get a Glass Wardrobe!
Be someone successful
Be someone important
Be the smartest human ever
Become handsome.
Style my hair.
Have all the free time.
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